Monday, July 5, 2010

对的人


你:“为什么喜欢一个人会那么的痛苦和不开心?”
我:“别傻了,因为他不是那个对的人,所以你才会那么的不快乐。”


在对的时间遇到对的人,是幸福的。他不会愿意见到你伤心难过,因为那样他自己也会难过的。当你失落的时候,他会想办法让你开心起来。或许他很笨拙,但至少他愿意为了你而尝试。你们吵嘴的时候,也许他强烈的自尊心让他放不下身段,但到最后他还是跑来向你低头,不是因为他知错了,只是他不忍心让你因为他而掉眼泪。如果这是一段真感情,你不会有太多的思想斗争、不断的猜忌怀疑、在深夜里辗转难眠。如果他是那个对的人,而你,应该是幸福、开心和微笑的。

Sunday, July 4, 2010

痛彻心扉

无意间见到你和她缠绵的照片,这一切并不是我希望见到的。我告诉自己不要再去回想了,但凭我再怎么努力,那痛彻心扉的感觉却无法刻意遗忘掉。那些照片一次又一次的浮现在我脑海,我的心一层又一层的被撕裂开来。

微笑的回忆着

我不是那种会因为离开而悲伤难过的人,但这一次心情却好沉重。心里有太多的牵挂,我放不下,但我知道放手对我们俩人也许是好的。毕竟,两个不合适的人始终会有说再见的一天。因此,我选择在这样的情况下离开,或许可以把伤害减到最低。就让彼此的回忆停留在最美好的那一刻,好吗?但愿某天你忽然想起我的时候,心里是微笑着的。 :)

Thursday, July 1, 2010

It's time to say good bye

I loved your past, but not when I saw through it. It's ugly! I loved you, but I also hate you for the same reason!

No, please don't write about me in your blog!


I "accidentally" found that you actually own a blog which you had never shared with me (and later I realized why you didn't). You write well. Your stuffs are farny (see, I even started imitating the way you talk), I really enjoy reading them. I secretly wished that someday you would write about me, in your blog. To me, it seemed like I have a place in your heart, even though we both are clear about that this is not something forever, I still wished that I would have a place in your heart after all.

Until I discovered about a blog you wrote for her (Idle Days), both of my hands were lightly shaking, I found myself hardly breathing. That's the reaction I had when I first saw this blog and those pictures of you and her. You seemed "enjoying" her very much. You seemed having a wonderful time with her. Those pictures were taken in your room, which I was there not too long ago. I told you, I hate seeing pictures that I can relate myself to them. I knew that you have a past and you can't go back and change it, but I just hate it! Yes, I get jealous where I am in a place that I shouldn't be. I am just not good enough to play such game. Yes, I want to call it a quit like I have always talked about it. This is something more than I can handle.

I don't see there is a possibility that we are going to have a future, not even 0.01%! I like guy who is more mature and caring. He can be a boy at heart, but he should know when to get serious, and he should be mature enough to handle situation. You're definitely not the caring type, at least not caring enough for my standard (I don't set a high standard though). All you do is pissing me off, fighting/arguing about stupid things with me, getting me upset, hurting me, and then you apologize later.

I know you're gonna hate about what I write, but I always have a thing for taller guy, and to me that's pretty essential. I explained to my friend 'it's just like most ladies who love Prada, LV those pricy designer bags. They make the ladies feel good, proud, satisfied, higher to walk around with them, showing them off. I don't have a thing for designer bags, but I do have a thing for the man's height! After all, you're just not my type, you're not the kind of guy for me, and you're just not good enough for me.

I really don't want to see you anymore, not even until the day I leave for UK. Good Luck! Oh yeah, let me remind you again, please don't write a blog about me!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

UK,到底去不去?


我曾经多么的期待着再度离开,为了办英国的留学手续,四处奔波,对学校与科系,精挑细选。终于,offer letter也到手了,现在只差交上两千英镑的学费订金,就可以去申请visa了。然而,走到了这一步我却开始犹豫不决,我已经不再像当初那样恨不得一走了之了。我抿心自问,细细分析到底是什么原因能让我有如此大的转变呢?我总是固执的相信我不会为了任何人而左右我的决定。所以,我想或许我已经不再像从前那样,那么的痛恨这个我活了20几年的土地。在这里,我看见了一线曙光。我曾经认为不可能的,也几乎变成有可能。当我在这里找到了人生目标和方向,却也同时的失去了继续漂泊的理由。

我不想再犹豫,不想继续挣扎。还是别想太多了,去吧!顶多只不过去去一年就到回来。但谁又知道人生会有什么样的变卦?我想,还是顺其自然吧。

Saturday, June 5, 2010

星空下的缘分

那一天,在朋友的生日party认识了你。对你的印象,老实说。。。哎,其实也没什么好说的,反正不是什么好听的话,呵呵!当时只觉得你有点轻浮,老对女生甜言蜜语。而我,最讨厌这种男生了。。。!你要了在场所有人的电话号码,还说好第二天约我/我们喝茶,到最后你一通电话也没有。因此,对你的印象更是大打折扣!不过也就算了,反正我对你也没什么兴趣的说。

后来的后来,我们到最后还是约了出来。这是我们第二次单独见面,我们去了我家附近的一家马来餐馆。晚餐后,你却还不想送我回家,而我其实也不太在意。我们在大街上开着车子毫无目的的闲逛着。我提议到45分钟车程以外的海边去,以为你会觉得我疯了,没想到你连考虑也不考虑,猛踩油门朝着黄金海岸狂奔去了。当我们终于到达了目的地,工作人员却告知cafe已经打烊了。真是@#¥@#%!。不过,这也不扫我们的兴致,反正我们都是随性的人,只要感觉对了就好。我们步行到沙滩去,就地而席,促膝而谈。

海边的星空很是让人着迷。繁星点点的星空下,听着海浪仿佛有节奏的拍打声,那一颗总是防备的心也渐渐的卸下了。。。。就这样我们坐在沙滩上聊了好几个小时,烟一根接着一根,细说着我们的过往、抱负、朋友、趣事等等。后来在回家的路上,才想起汽油提示灯已亮起红灯,而我们还要开45公里的车程才能回到。其实,我本来应该会有点紧张的,可是因为有你的相伴,我想就算天踏下来也可以当被盖!你问我紧张吗?万一车子要停在伸手不见五指的路边怎么办?我说:“还没发生的事不需要去紧张,等发生了再说吧!”其实,我的洒脱只不过是装出来的!

很幸运的我们顺利的回到了镇上,你却还不想回家,说要去吃雪糕(天,已经凌晨2点了!)。我们去了24小时的麦当劳,一直到3点半,我们终于都累了,你才依依不舍的送我回家。我想,这一刻我是喜欢上你的了!


p/s:实在不是很愿意用这个title,觉得太土了。。。但,想来想去还是这标题比较贴切的说!